Today went better.
It started out not better; I had a magnanimous as always video conversation with my love, which was wondrous, but then I had nothing to do afterwards and couldn't sleep and was feeling quite lonely. And then Bobbi posted on my Facebook wall "KELLIE.. YOU SIT IN YOUR ROOM ALL THE DAYS". And it sort of hurt my feelings. And I think that's the first time in our six year friendship that Bobbi has ever hurt my feelings. I know of course that she was just trying to be lovely and wonderful and it was her own way of making sure I was okay. She's endlessly lovely.
Anyway, I sat there feeling incredibly depressed for about three minutes, and then I got up and walked up to the fourth floor and knocked on Bobbi's door and we went for a walk and then had dinner. It was nice. I needed that. Bobbi always knows how to cheer me up.
And at dinner I had a genuine conversation with Natasha and Marie about roast potatoes and scholarship money. Also a slice of chocolate cake.
And I hung out in Tessa's room with her for fifteen or so minutes before we had to go off to a group activity thing. And we both agreed that a specific girl in our stack is unforgivably loud and irritating. Ahh, talking about others behind their backs. What an evil you are, and yet, how magnetically you bring people together.
I checked out the TV lounge as well, where Jeremy and another girl were watching Pay It Forward on television, and I watched for a bit, though we didn't really have conversation.
So, yes. The day evolved from one of loneliness and insecurity to one of mild socialisation. Dare I say that things are getting better?
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